I am back at work now after having a few weeks on medical leave for anxiety and depression. I am working short weeks for a while and have made other arrangements to support my re-integration back to work.
Firstly, and just so you all know, I am receiving good medical care and medication is starting to kick in, and also I am receiving counselling and other support. Most importantly I am safe.
I still am battling through, which is not easy at times and is tiring, and certainly have my moments when I need to take a break.
Some of the people and things that are good and are helping me get through are, my very loving and supportive wife, some very good friends, music (writing, performing, and collaborating), and MusicHelps .
Anxiety has been great for writing songs and I have written 14 songs in the last 6 weeks, while depression makes me not want to even pick up my guitar. Anxiety and depression are a very strange combination.
Why am I being open?
As kiwis and as blokes (generalisation), we are terrible about seeking help and support when we need it.
I thought that as I have always been an advocate for people with mental illness that it is good for me to be up front and open that I am now one of the many people who also have a mental illness.
I have sought out help from my GP and a counsellor for what I am dealing with and it does help.
Hopefully this will encourage others to get help too.
So the important take away from what I am going through at the moment is this…
…Do not be ashamed or embarrassed to seek help if you are struggling – use the 1737 help number if you need to, make use of the EAP services, counselling, or other support services that are available, talk to your close trusted friends, discuss it with your doctor.
Check out for your friends, ask them if they are OK and genuinely support them if they need it.
Know that you are not alone in the dark, and there is hope even if it doesn’t feel like it now (note: even as I write this I have to remind myself of this. )
New Zealand Support Contacts
- 1737, free 24/7 phone and text number
- Healthline: 0800 611-116
- Lifeline Aotearoa: 0800 543-354
- Suicide Crisis Helpline: 0508 828-865
- Samaritans: 0800 726-666
- General mental health inquiries: 0800 443-366
- The Depression Helpline: 0800 111-757
for NZ music industry people
Check out MusicHelps
Ko te Tai o Araiteuru te tūrakawaewae,
Kei te noho au ki Ōtepoti,
Ko Pākehā te iwi,
Ko Paul Allen tōku ikoa
He kaitito waiata, kaihopu whakaahua hoki au.
Nō reira, tēnā koutou katoa
And He Flies is available on CD from the following
Digital download from
Thanks to OAR FM Dunedin – Community Access Media and Dunedin Public Libraries for the interview yesterday. Some great questions from Kay Mercer from the Library to give you an insight into my music and the processes I go through to write, record and perform.
ABOUT THE ALBUM
All songs written as my observation and reflection of the world and people around me each day.
Forgive me as I know there are a few mistakes & glitches but I have deliberately left them there as I believe nothing is perfect and there is beauty in imperfection.
Sweet lullabies is dedicated to all those with hidden illnesses who “look well” but battle everyday.
Paul S Allen: All vocals, backing vocals, acoustic guitars, electric guitars, ukulele, bass, lead guitar, keyboards, piano. Drums: the magic elves who live in my computer with nudging and arrangement by myself.
Recorded, mixed and mastered at home.
Thank you to everyone who has supported me on my musical journey thus far, the people who come along to gigs, listen to my music, and to those I collaborate with at gigs especially my good friend darryl baser, I appreciate you all.
Thank you to my wonderful wife Wendy .
Video Montage and image gallery of the iconic The Nook & Cranny Music Festival held at the Dunedin Public Libraries, Dunedin, New Zealand, on the 2 May 2021 to Celebrate NZ Music Month
(I missed about four of the artists as I was performing at the time – apologies to those four)
Kia ora koutou
You are warmly invited to come to the launch of my second album “And He Flies”.
This will be an opportunity to hear the stories behind the songs and the album.
It will be held on 14 May at the wonderful Gallery on Blueskin which have always been a great supporter of local Dunedin musicians I would love to see you there.
Celebrating #NZMusicMonth by launching a new album.
Details for where you will be able to purchase / stream the album will be posted here on the 14 May 2021.
There will be a further celebration of the album in July with an event with other artists supporting and playing the album with me… details to follow.
For immediate release. 22 April 2021
A passionate Dunedin musician is releasing his second album.
Singer songwriter Paul S Allen has been a stalwart live performer for more than 30 years in Dunedin.
Paul S Allen releases his second full album, ‘And He Flies’ on May 14, 2021.
And He Flies is a ten song album which as a followup to his 2019 album “Stay”.
“The album takes the listener on a searching musical journey.” Paul Allen said.
A multi-instrumentalist Paul S Allen arranged and plays every instrument on And He Flies.
“The album’s title track is the seventh song on the album, which is closed off with Hold Me Close” he said.
With Allen’s reflective lyric style, his original songs are from the heart and soul drawing on observations of the world around him.
English born, but now is a proud Kiwi, he’s also a passionate supporter of the Dunedin music scene.
Paul S Allen is celebrating the release of And He Flies with an album release event at Gallery on Blueskin in Waitati, on Friday evening, May 14th.
Paul S Allen will have hard copies of And He Flies and his previous album Stay available at the release show.
Links to And He Flies will be online at Spotify, iTunes, and Bandcamp and are set to go live on May 14th.
Paul S Allen plays in Gallery on Blueskin at 6:30pm Friday 14th to celebrate the release of his second album And He Flies.
For further information contact:
The amazing Rosa Black and myself will be performing together on some songs and solo on others.
This will be a great night not to be missed
Gallery on Blueskin 1 Harvey Street, Waitati, just 15 minutes north of Dunedin City
Friday 16 April music starts at 7:00pm
Come early for a great meal and stay for an evening of wonderful music.